Sunday, May 8, 2011

Why don't you sit right down and stay awhile?

I understand it has been awhile since I have posted.  There is truly no excuse to why it has been months since my last post.  To say I have been busy is an understatement but, I want to take a moment and express some of the changes and accomplishments that I have encountered. 

I have gathered so much and grown as an individual through this journey.  Liz Gilbert, the author of Eat Pray, Love, discusses a concept entitled "The Physics of the Quest".  She states that: "If you are brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting... and set out on a truth seeking journey, either internally or externally.  If you are willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone on that journey as a teacher.  If you are prepared most of all to face and forgive some difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you."

That concept is one that resonates because the idea that moving myself far from my roots definitely serves as life altering. I have encountered important teachers in the classroom of life and overcome numerous realities about myself.  I have struggled both internally and externally as I begin to understand more about my purpose within this life. Not to mention, having these kids crawl into my heart and take my breath away everytime I look into there eyes is simply priceless.  This makes me realize it is not all about me, it rarely is.

As I continue to grow I realize more and more that my beautiful picture of what life is, is not the picture that many carry in there back pockets. I have been blessed with a life of few hiccups and for that I am grateful.  Learning to love and accept what you have been given is challenging.  Understanding to live freely is another life lesson that my girls have taught.  Most of them do not carry the prettiest pictures instead, many hold suitcases filled with unwanted pasts.  Despite their cargo, each day they are able to smile and laugh.  They have the ability to forgive and live freely, something many yearn for.  

I wish I could stay in my now lavender painted room forever. I have come to love these girls.  I have cared for them when they are sick, I have wiped their tears. I miss their presence when they are not home, they are on my mind and in my heart constantly.  These girls are my life. But I understand that r some ventures are meant to be brief.  This experience has changed me forever and I will continue to grow within my last months here.

Until next time....(I promise I wont take as long)